I feel mildly unfulfilled. Today I was having something of an internal crisis, with the usual “where do I belong?” and “what am I doing wrong?” “do my friends enjoy my company?” type things. Kind of put a damper on plans and stuff. But I’m feeling a little better. I’ve been taking steps at bettering myself, little by little. I want to be someone to take pride in. Everyone has setbacks and off days, blah blah blah, encouraging shit. I hope that if I put up with the feeling shitty about things and keep trying to be positive and dragging my mangled self towards a better me, things will get better. I’ve had a couple small personal victories but I need to go further, fly higher, be stronger, whatever dumb terminology. Overcoming one’s flaws is hard as shit, especially when they’re passive flaws like worrying and paranoia. I should probably identify the things that make me worry/paranoid and then analyze why they make me worry/paranoid and why that’s irrational/illogical.
Accel World is starting to show that it’s a pretty good anime
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